Choose your own bucket!

I’m 25, engaged, currently in grad school and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. Sounds pathetic right? Lol

My whole life has been a huge question mark. My parents pushed me to be a doctor and lawyer but I always was fascinated with computers! Ended up going to a STEM high school and majored in IT In undergraduate but even with a interest with computers I still don’t know what I want to do and honestly I’m okay with it.

Too many times people make you choose to fit into a bucket but I don’t want to conform. I want my hands in all the buckets. I want to be multi-talented. I like what I like and do what I like.

I started my first job as a systems analyst and now I’m more in a HR role. Still in IT but I saw a need to help the diversity pipeline so I’m doing and living that. But who knows what I may want to do later.

I’m in grad school getting a masters in comp sci…still have no idea what I’m going to do with it but I’m learning so I’m advancing. My boss is pushing me to pick but I feel better going with the flow of things. I’m kicking ass in my current job, why is that not enough?

Why do people feel you have to look ahead? I just want to take it day by day! For those who feel like me, I just want to let you know it’s okay to dream and not have everything figured out. Don’t like society push you into a bucket! Pick your own bucket or multiple buckets or make your own bucket! I’m still figuring out what my bucket will be but for now I’m okay with multiple.



New perspective

Coming to you live from the BDPA Connect 16 conference in ATL! Of course I’m representing my job but also myself. Thai is the first conference I have had the privilege to attend and I can say it has changed my outlook on numerous things. As a African American female, I feel there is not a lot of diversity in today’s tech industry. I want to take a stand and help our fellow brothers and sisters push through the boundary.

I attended a workshop with Valiesha Butterfield Jones, who is in charge of black engagement at Google and she had inspired me so much to speak up. We need to help eachother and not just sit on the sidelines. I want to help bring diversity to my company as well as others. 


I’ve been neglecting you guys and that’s so not like me. I apologize for that but I’ve been so motivated in my diet and workout that it’s just taken over. First off I’m down 6 pounds!!! Yes, and I didn’t have to drink a protein shake to do it. Low-carb and exercise have been my bestie for the last couple weeks. I’ve started getting better educated with what I can eat when I got out and still losing weight in the process. I’ll start sharing more guys, my life is semi interesting I think maybe not lol 

Till next time – Esh 


So let me tell you about my fitness journey for the last two years. May 2015 I started with herballife and although it did help me lose weight, it was so expensive and I couldn’t keep up with the products. Plus the people weren’t that friendly. I started to feel like I looked more like a dollar sign then a person to people. It got worse when instead of “how are you doing” txts, I started getting “when is your next order” and “join this challenge and buy this product” txts. I understand people make a living off of commission of these products but I’m not a product I’m a person so please treat me that way.

Once I quit Herbalife, I just started working out on my own. I gained some weight back but I’m overall happy. But I told you guys I would be committed and I am. Before is my progress pic, post herabal life on the left, middle is mid herbalife and last is now. Soon I’ll be past that middle pic and I don’t plan to to stop!!

Progress week 2-3

Guys my fitness journey is slowly on its way. I’m down two pounds and while that’s a minor victory for some that’s a HUGE victory for me. I’m counting my calories and working towards being an overall healthier me. Promise to post pics on Sunday so you can see my progress! 

Moment of weakness

Guys so I’ve been working out non-stop over the last 3 weeks and honestly to me I’ve seen no difference in myself. My bf tells me he can see it but I don’t and I’m starting to get a little discouraged. The scale hasn’t moved and I really started to give up!

But then I read something about how the scale doesn’t have to move for you to lose weight. How you can be building muscle and toning and the weight can be transferred to muscles. That line there made me keep going as I see individuals doing the same workout plan I’m doing and saying the scale doesn’t always have to be the accomplishment. So guys I’m gonna go harder then before and work to drop this weight! I won’t let my insecurities or disbeliefs stop me again. Who said losing weight was easy?  


Okay guys so my first promise to myself was all around being healthy. So I’ve commited to do that. Let me give you the details of what I’m doing. My bf has me on this plank challenge which I’m on day 7/8 I believe now. My bf claims he sees results but I don’t yet so I probably need to take b4 & after so I can see what he sees. 
Also I’m doing a 90 fitness challenge, if you guys know Natalie nunn then you know what I’m talking about. I’m doing her challenge which has specific workouts laid out for each day. I’m into week 2 and I feel GREAT! I’m getting back into running again and can increase my speed each day. Back in college I could run 20 mins straight so I’m glad to finally getting back to the old me 😊. No where to go but up from here. Who ever said it would be easy? 🙃

Flat twist/perm rod result

So this is the end product of my hair. My hair didn’t dry all the way so it’s more of a messy curl but I like it. Wish my hair could of stretched a little bit more but I’m okay for the curl fro for now. I finger picked my hair to give it a little more personality and to pull the curls out more. Next time I might set my hair earlier in the day so it has time to dry before going to bed.